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assalamualaikum...alhamdulilah...sukaneka yg amat mnyeksa kan da settle pg td...ya amat laa sonuk...tak hengat pnye...hahhahahha...men sukan ala2 dak2 kn...best bangat dehh..yg tak best ile msuk tghary..matahari trpacak,mta pown da nek kuyu...hahahhaa...time 2 sleep ma...!!!mmg blk 2 ak tdo tak hengat pnye laa kn..dr kol 12 smapi kol 6..gyle tak gyle laa kn..mmg..!!ak cr nahas,kje brtimbun..da trlajak tdo nie..mmg mlm kunk ssh nk tdo..ya ampun...!!!da uh..pg sok tink tong..ak ske cr masalah kn..!!ishh kmu nie...hehehe...rinie...cm tak brsemngat lgsng...bnyk bnda nk pk..urm..syukur ak dpt mgawal sgala kerunsingan yg de..mmpu brfkr scara rasional lg...alhamdulilah...even pada hakikatnye...tuhan je twu btapa sakitnye..btapa sksa nye pe yg ak ase now..ksonk...mmg ase tade pe kot..even dikelilingi ramai kwn2...tp tak sma...kosonk...ak mmg jnis bkn brckp 24 jam..ile da cnie..mmg payah laa kot...soe diela...ak bkn tanak bckp..soe ak wt ko ase ko sorank lam blik nie...urm...ya Allah sdey btl laa...cne nk uat nie...mak..kakak nk blk..!!!mslah gan olie tak settle ag..dua2 diam..ak ase cm kteorg da trgantung..masing2 da ikut haluan masink2...ak tak mmpu nk settle kn mslh nie...ak tak twu np ak cnie..bkn tanak amek port..tp...ntah laa..ak da tanak uat pe2 da..pnat prjuangkn hbgn nie sorg dr...bkn mngungkit..tp..sy tak mmpu nk uat pe2 now..sy tak twu np sy da tade bnda nk ckp daa...sy tak twu..sy tak twu...sy tak twu..tlg jgn tny pe2 lg awk..sy mrayu kt awk..ckup mslh yg da de nie...ckup awk...tlg..tak puas ke awk hancurkn aty sy..???ea...sy tak phm awk mgkn..awk phm sy ke..??at least sy tawu cne law awk mrh..cne awk sdey..sy tak tny pown sy twu..awk..????kna tny dlu bwu awk twu sy cne kn...at least sy cuba sdaya upaya nk phm awk...phm keadaan awk yg tak pnh mnentu...phm situasi awk..phm keadaan family awk..pnh sy ckp sume 2 kt awk...sy tggu awk..tp awk..???sy sakit..sy egt awk...tp awk..???org len yg bria care sal sy..ne awk g..??mane...!!!!!!!!!!!!sy prlu kan awk time sy btl prlukn...ne awkk..?????awk kua..njoy gan kwn2...tak hengat dnia...tak hengat sy..oke..mgkn..!!mgkn awk egt sy...tp de nk text..cll sy time sy sakit 2...sy tacink gan awk...tp tak lpas nk ckp...tp ile sy trlps ckp..awk yg sakit aty skli kn...np nk ase brslh ile sy sakit mlm 2..np tak biarkn je sy.. !!!!!!!np nk care lagi..!!!!!!!np tak bia kn...!!!np..!!!!time awk cll sy mlm 2...aty sy da hncur sgt..tp sy ckp tape kn..!!awk twu np..??sbab sy tank kite ag gado..ag jauh...sy nk prjuangkn hbgn kite...tp awk..??esoknye 2..awk diam je kn...tak tny sy oke ke tak...ile sy ckp cnie..awk akn bang sy blk..sy kna blk..cm sy nie laa plg jahat kn..!!!!!np lyn sy cnie..pe awk nk lg dr sy...pe awk nk sy buat ha..!!tlg laa awk....sy tak cm gurl len...sy tggu nk jmpe awk...even sy ckp tape..awk g laa..sy oke je..law awk hppy sy happy..awk tawu tak prasaan sy time 2...!!!awk jnji nk dtg kn..tp awk tak dtg..last minute awk cncel kna ikut fmly awk..awk..nie bkn skli dua twu...sy korban kn sgalanye...sy sabar gan awk..sy fhm keadaan fmly awk...sy sabar gan awk...fmly awk..keadaan awk...awk egt tak kite pnh pts dlu np..??sal fmly kn..sy time awk balik...!!!sbab..???????????????????sy nk prjuangkn hbgn nie...sy sanggup sabar n cuba fhm keadaan awk...awk ley tak fhm keadaan sy now..???sy bkn nk ungkit pe yg sy wt..tp awk pk laa..law btl sy nk g..sy da lme g...sy da lme wt..sy sggup sabar...now sy da ase zero...mmg sy tak text awk lgsng..sebab..???sy tak twu cne nk uat lg..sy da buntu...awk tak keysa..so sy ase tak perlu kot kysa gak..

urm..da laa ilank dye kn..k.nadia pown sme..kmi da tak cm belangkas ag...trpaksa jauh...sksa nk uat sume 2..sdey nk uat sume 2..mak...kakak rndu k.nadia...mak...!!!!kakak nk uat cne nie mak...kakak rndu dye..kakak rndu dye...mak tlg g twu kt dye kakak rndu dye ley tak...akk...rndu akk...rndu akk...hurm....ntah laa cne nk uat now...dlu rapat...now...cm da ase agak jauh...akk...cne nk idop tnpa akk..da slalu sgt gan akk...akk slalu tman g'a...g'a sdey..hppy...dr g'a gemok smapi g'a krus kerink cnie akk de..akk tgk prkembangan g'a..cm 2 jgk g'a...g'a tgk akk start akk krus smapi akk brisi...start akk sombonk smpai peramah cnie...celik mata tgk akk..sembang gan akk..gelak gan akk..sume gan akk..smpai laa da nk tdo...still gan akk..ckp gan akk..gelak..nangs..sume gan akk...sume..sume.!!now..??g'a bkak mata..akk da tade...nk sembang gan sp nie...nk gelak bria2 gan sp nie...nk nangs gan sp..sume sorg now...akk...np kite prlu cnie..np kite prlu cnie..np prlu cnie...g'a tanak..g'a tanak...!!!!!dnia g'a da gelap...g'a tak twu nk g ane...g'a tak twu nk ngadu kt sp..tak twu sp nk bebel kt g'a ag..tak twu nk larang sp mmbebel ag..takkan dgr pkataan ayam dr akk ag...g'a tak twu nk ckp cne..bgn pg..ile kua dr blik.."g'a ne k.nadia..??"ak dgr bnda 2 brulang kli...brulang2...!!!korank...np tny ag..ile ak slalu gan dye..korank cuba nafikn 2 sume...tp ile da tade np korank cr kakak ak ag...g'a tggu msg dr akk rinie..tp tade..g'a egt ile akk ckp law akk tak msg g'a bkn akk lpe g'a kn..g'a harap cm 2 la..g'a tak pnh lpe kn akk...g'a syg akk....syg sgt..mlm td...sdey sgt..tak ley nk tdo...tak lps tgn akk..ntah laa akk...sdey sgt..urm..kkdang ase nk rebah pown de..g'a ase kekok sgt ile akk tade...nk uat pe pown sure egt..bnyk bnda yg akk tggl kt g'a..cne g'a nk kuat nie...akk...ya Allah..!!!!tlg ak...ssungguh nye nie mgkn jln yg trbaek...kuatkn aty ak...